“Sometimes it’s hard to look in the mirror, to see that face that everyone says is so pretty but it just looks plain to me. Sometimes it’s easier to wake up and forget your dreams
because of life, but you can’t do that. The easiest thing to do in life is be depressed. The hardest thing to do is to get up and say to yourself “Things will get better” even though you’re never convinced by that. But it helps to pretend. Sometimes I sit back and watch everyone cry out for attention, and everyone else goes “Oh they’re retarded.” But I think, why go to that length to get attention? Maybe they really need it? Sometimes, I wake up in the morning and say to myself, “If I give up today, I promise I’ll always get back up tomorrow & try again.” Cause sometimes trying to be a saint and sticking with the most stubborn of people, it makes it easier to look in that mirror.”—
[ ] I am a boy. [x] I am a girl. [x] I am shorter than 5’4. [x i have those days] I think I’m ugly sometimes. [x] I have many scars.  I tan easily.  I wish my hair was a different color. [ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color. [ ] I have a tattoo. [x] I am self-conscious about my appearance. [ ] I wear glasses. [ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free [x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger. [ ] I have more than 2 piercings. [ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears. [ ] I have freckles.
Family/Home Life [x] I’ve sworn at my parents. [ ] I’ve run away from home. [ ] I’ve been kicked out of the house. [ ] I have a sibling less than one year old. [x] I want to have kids someday. [ ] I’ve lost a child.
School/Work [x] I’m in school [ ] I have a job [x] I’ve fallen asleep at work/school. [x] I almost always do/did my homework. [ ] I’ve missed a week or more of school. [x] I’ve been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years. [ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.  I’ve stolen something from my job.
Embarrassment [ ] I’ve slipped out an “lol” in a spoken conversation. [ ] Disney movies still make me cry. [x] I’ve peed from laughing. [x wow these are embarassing] I’ve snorted while laughing. [x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried. [x] I’ve glued my hand to something. [x HAHAH ] I’ve had my pants rip in public
Health [ ] I was born with a disease/impairment [ ] I’ve gotten stitches/staples. [ ] I’ve broken a bone. [ ] I’ve had my tonsils removed. [ ] I’ve sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend. [ ] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed. [ ] I had a serious surgery. [ ] I’ve had chicken pox. [ ] I’ve had measles
perfect health :D
Traveling  I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day [x] I’ve been on a plane. [x TO babyyy] I’ve been to Canada. [ ] I’ve been to Mexico [ ] I’ve been to Niagara Falls. [ ] I’ve been to Japan. [ ] I’ve celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans. [ ] I’ve been to Europe. [ ] I’ve been to Africa.
Experiences [x] I’ve gotten lost in my city. [x] I’ve seen a shooting star. [x] I’ve wished on a shooting star [x] I’ve seen a meteor shower. [x] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas. [x] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator. [x] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts. [x] I’ve been to a casino. [ ] I’ve been skydiving. [;)] I’ve gone skinny dipping. [x] I’ve played spin the bottle. [ ] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour. [ ] I’ve crashed a car. [x] I’ve been skiing. [ ] I’ve been in a play. [x] I’ve met someone in person from Myspace. [x] I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue. [ ] I’ve seen the Northern lights. [x] I’ve sat on a roof top at night. [ ] I’ve played chicken. [x] I’ve played a prank on someone [x] I’ve ridden in a taxi. [x] I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. [x] I’ve eaten sushi. [ ] I’ve been snowboarding.
Relationships  I’m single [x] I’m in a relationship [ ] I’m engaged. [ ] I’m married. [ ] I’ve gone on a blind date. [ ] I’ve been the dumped more than the dumper. [x] I miss someone right now. [x] I have a fear of abandonment. [ ] I’ve gotten divorced. [x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back. [x] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t. [x] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did. [ ] I’ve kept something from a past relationship. [ ] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex. [ew] I’ve had a crush on a teacher. [x] I am a cuddler. [x =)] I’ve been kissed in the rain. [x] I’ve hugged a stranger. [ew] I have kissed a stranger.
Honesty/Crime [x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t. [x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.  I’ve snuck out of my house. [x] I have lied to my parents about where I am [x] I am keeping a secret from the world. [x] I’ve cheated while playing a game. [x] I’ve cheated on a test. [ ] I’ve run a red light. [ ] I’ve been suspended from school. [x] I’ve witnessed a crime. [ ] I’ve been in a fist fight. [ ] I’ve been arrested.
Drugs/Alcohol [x] I’ve consumed alcohol. [ ] I regularly drink. [ ] I’ve passed out from drinking. [ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months. [ ] I’ve taken painkillers when I didn’t need them. [ ] I’ve eaten shrooms. [ ] I’ve popped E. [ ] I’ve inhaled Nitrous. [ ] I’ve done hard drugs. [x] I have cough drops when I’m not sick. [ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem. [ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression. [ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder. [x] I shut others out when I’m depressed. [ ] I take anti-depressants.  I have been anorexic or bulimic. [x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it. [ ] I’ve hurt myself on purpose. [x] I’ve woken up crying.
Death and Suicide [x] I’m afraid of dying. [x] I hate funerals. [x] I’ve seen someone dying. [ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide. [ ] I’ve planned my own suicide [ ] I’ve attempted suicide. [ ] I’ve written a eulogy for myself.
Materialism [ ] I own over 5 rap CDs. [x] I own an iPod or MP3 player. [ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga. [ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece. [x] I own something from Hot Topic. [x] I own something from Pac Sun. [ ] I collect comic books. [x] I own something from The Gap. [ ] I own something I got on e-bay. [ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
Random [i wish ] I can sing well. [ ] I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant. [ ] I open up to others easily. [ ] I watch the news. [ ] I don’t kill bugs. [x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme. [x] I curse regularly. [ ] I sing in the shower. [ ] I am a morning person. [ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone. [ ] I’m a snob about grammar. [ ] I am a sports fanatic. [x] I twirl my hair [ ] I have “x”s in my screen name. [ ] I love being neat. [x] I love Spam. [ ] I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day [x] I bake well. [ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue [x] I’ve worn pajamas to school. [ ] I like Martha Stewart. [ ] I know how to shoot a gun [x] I am in love with love. [ew] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS. [x] I laugh at my own jokes. [x] I eat fast food weekly. [ ] I believe in ghosts. [ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message. [x] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class. [ ] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room. [xxxx] I am really ticklish. [x] I love white chocolate [ ] I bite my nails. [x] I play video games. [ ] I’m good at remembering names. [ ] I’m good at remembering dates. [x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
I tried to do this to get my mind off things. It didn’t work.
today i saw him for a total of 10 minutes today. it hurts so bad to say goodbye to him. he has a new life in sf now and it sucks that im not a big part of it. we used to be so close but i feel like we’re drifting because all he cares about is his new friends.
i still love him though. i just miss my best friend